19 - Another year has vanished

I feel I was less productive writing my stories in 2025 for many reasons but it’s never too late to catch up.

I retract into myself a lot when I have been socialising. I need to get my energy back. In reality I would stay in my tiny bubble if I could as it’s quieter but I do try to make an effort to be a little sociable.

As the years pass I find it harder to even try. I just want to be in my own little world, painting and making things and not having to exhibit and do the blabla. It’s not that I don’t want to meet people but I would much prefer on a one to one basis. I run from the limelight, I have no desire to become famous or to attract attention. Yes, it may be to my detriment as nowadays it seems that to be a successful artist you have to almost sell your soul on social media. I cannot bear what artists have to do. I feel like we are expected to be performing monkeys in the zoo. I would prefer to be an artist who is never discovered than to be one who spits their anger on to the canvas for political reasons. I want to connect with people and make them feel the joy and wonder I live when I paint. I read recently that A. Rand said abstract art was the most useless and ridiculous thing she had ever seen. I completely refute this. I think you can’t make such a comment unless you have experienced it and the benefits of doing it. Not understanding something is all the more reason to try and find out why.

In 2025 I participated in three exhibitions;

Watercolours - Dunmore East- June

Another Venus Perhaps Collective - Tramore Old Coast Guard Station - June

Waterford City Library - December